Siti H. Iskandar aka Medot

Life and appreciation

2011-11-29T01:14:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i lose to myself,bcs i definitely can't get a grip for certain things in life that makes me left with a state of turmoil during devastating situations.
life's a roller coaster,i know i have to be strong and be self assured that everything will be alright.i have always been my own self motivator,criticism, and enlightenment.(yup i do talk to myself sometimes.) i agree,that sometimes life is just soo unfair to you that you just have to curse it away.
however,thats not the reason for you to end your life,esp at bedok reservoir,enough for the 6 victims or must i say idiots(act 5 - the child) ? there's always a time when you randomly cry in the middle of the night,for some minor cause.well maybe you are just being overly-sentitive esp when you had bottled-up all the past bad accurance that happened to you.
Not to worry,you are not alone.I know i'm young,and i definitely not accepted to be in the league to talk about my 17 year young life.
Don't underestimate and judge one's life.cause you do not have the right to do so. because no one,NO ONE have/can never ever ride-on in our shoes,and be the Dora the explorer in our life.everyone have their own versions and visions for their life story.
Btw,Counsellors aren't there to understand your life,bcs they are humans like us,you dont expect them to understand you.They are there for lending the ears and shoulder for you to pour on.their jobs is basically to listen and console.5 years in Siglap secondary,i'm proud to say i have awesome counsellors in my school,and they deserve a credit to my humble post, let me present to you....

::~::Ms.Dian,Ms.Haslindah,Ms.Adeline chua,Ms.Shahidah,Ms.Angela khiu::~:: thank you for being there when i needed the most,giving me advices,encouragements,sometimes a tight slap wake-up calls of facts that i needed,during the times i'm obviously blind or sleep walking.Thank you for the guidance,treating me like a sister,child,and friend.i could never imagine how my life would be without you people,it would be different,maybe for worst.million thank yous will never be enough.i will do my best in whatever i do.i will never forget you.thank you again.

MHOmuvee: Kashaf Imani | Full Telemovie (2011) - SDTVRip

2011-10-26T01:32:00.000+08:00

MHOmuvee: Kashaf Imani | Full Telemovie (2011) - SDTVRip

Kashaf Imani

2011-10-26T01:30:00.002+08:00

Andai bisa ku mengulang
Waktu hilang dan terbuang
Andai bisa perbaiki segala yang terjadi
Tapi waktu tak berhenti
Tapi detik tak kembali
Harap ampunkan hamba-Mu ini

Waktu berputar rebulan dan matahari
Bunga yang mekar akan layu akan mati
Malam 'kan berakhir, hari 'kan berganti
Takdir hidup 'kan dijalani

This movie made me cried in the middle of the night.so please watch this movie when you have the time:')

Story behind a person name Shu'aib

2011-10-23T22:24:00.003+08:00

My nephew had his 1st birthday few days ago.My brother named him Achmad Shu'aib.so here it is the story behind his name Shu'aib.Achmad is the name taken from our late Bro Achmad shariff,the 2nd brother,who died in an accident.something im proud to share.Happy Birthday my dear lil nephew,i'll always be loving you dearest.i love you always.remember,when you are out abroad later next year,please miss me.im missing you already.. :'(
Aunty dot~

Shuaib received an automobile from his brother as an Eid present. On Eid day when Shuaib came out of his house, a street urchin was walking around the shiny new car, admiring it. "Is this your car, Uncle?" he asked. Shuaib nodded. "My brother gave it to me for Eid." The boy was astounded. "You mean your brother gave it to you and it didn't cost you nothing? Boy, I wish..." He hesitated. Of course Shuaib knew what he was going to wish for. He was going to wish he had a brother like that. But what the lad said jarred Shuaib all the way down to his heels. "I wish," the boy went on, "that I could be a brother like that." Shuaib looked at the boy in astonishment, then impulsively he added, "Would you like to take a ride in my automobile?" "Oh yes, I'd love that." After a short ride, the boy turned and with his eyes aglow, said, "Uncle, would you mind driving in front of my house?" Shuaib smiled a little. He thought he knew what the lad wanted. He wanted to show his neighbors that he could ride home in a big automobile. But Shuaib was wrong again. "Will you stop where those two steps are?" the boy asked. He ran up the steps. Then in a little while Shuaib heard him coming back, but he was not coming fast. He was carrying his little crippled brother. He sat him down on the bottom step, then sort of squeezed up against him and pointed to the car. "There it is, little brother, just like I told you upstairs. His brother gave it to him for Eid and it didn't cost him a penny. And some day I'm gonna give you one just like it...then you can see for yourself all the pretty things in the Shop windows that I've been trying to tell you about." Shuaib got out and lifted the boy to the front seat of his car. The shining-eyed older brother climbed in beside him and the three of them began a memorable ride. That Eid, Shuaib learned what the RasulAllah (salAllahu alayhi wasalam) meant when he had said: "love for your brother what you love for yourself".

The update of the child.

2011-10-18T16:55:00.000+08:00

Poor lil child,I've lost all faith in humanity now.

2011-10-18T16:34:00.002+08:00

Do tell me honestly,is it fair for that child,which is innocent and make no sin towards others,but have to suffer in that kind of state? Nobody would even want to take a look or even come over to help.Towards her painful journey,she died.what if that child is your child? your sister/brother? think about it,and from now on,i promised myself to help people regardless,he/she is a strangers on the streets.help em in whatever state.Who else want to take care of our own neighborhood,and fellow citizens but ourself? Dont tell me the PR's are gg to help us out...not in millions years.unless you paid em ah.

Jokes of the day~

2011-10-17T10:58:00.000+08:00

An Imam shocked his community when he announced that he was resigning from that particular Masjid and moving to a drier climate. After the session, a very distraught lady came to the Imam with tears in her eyes, "Oh, Imam, we are going to miss you so much. We don't want you to leave!" The kind hearted Imam said "Now, now, sister, don't carry on. The Imam who takes my place might be even better than me".

"Yeah", she said, with a tone of disappointment in her voice, "That's what they said the last time too . . . "

Soo talented!

2011-10-16T23:42:00.000+08:00

2011-10-13T18:43:00.000+08:00

“There is someone who looks after us
from behind the curtain. In truth,
we are not here. This is our shadow.”
— Rumi

Not mine. But this belongs to everyone.

2011-10-12T17:05:00.000+08:00

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Wake up for Fajr Solah

2011-10-12T16:28:00.001+08:00

Wake up for Fajr Solah

A man woke up early in order to pray the Fajr Prayer at the masjid. He got dressed, made his ablution and was on his way to the masjid. On his way to the masjid, the man fell and his clothes got dirty. He got up, brushed himself off, and headed home. At home, he changed his clothes, made his ablution, and was, again, on his way to the masjid. On his way to the masjid, he fell again and at the same spot! He, again, got up, brushed himself off and headed home. At home he, once again, changed his clothes, made his ablution and was on his way to the masjid. On his way to the masjid, he met a man holding a lamp. He asked the man of his identity and the man replied I saw you fall twice on your way to the masjid, so I brought a lamp so I can light your way.' The first man thanked him profusely and the two were on their way to the masjid. Once at the masjid, the first man asked the man with the lamp to come in and pray Fajr with him. The second man refused. The first man asked him a couple more times and, again, the answer was the same. The first man asked him why he did not wish to come in and pray. The man replied, 'I am Satan (devil/evil)'The man was shocked at this reply. Satan went on to explain, 'I saw you on your way to the masjid and it was I who made you fall. When you went home, cleaned yourself and went back on your way to the masjid, Allah forgave all of your sins. I made you fall a second time, and even that did not encourage you to stay home, but rather, you went back on your way to the masjid. Because of that, Allah forgave all the sins of the people of your household .. I was AFRAID if i made you fall one more time, then Allah will forgive the sins of the people of your village , so i made sure that you reached the masjid safely!'So do not let Satan benefit from his actions. Do not put off a good that you intended to do as you never know how much reward you might receive from the hardships you encounter while trying to achieve that good.

Beautiful Heart

2011-10-12T16:07:00.000+08:00

Beautiful Heart

One day a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley.A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it.Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen. The young man was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful heart. Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said,"Why your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine." The crowd and the young man looked at the old man's heart. It was beating strongly, but full of scars, it had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn't fit quite right and there were several jagged edges.In fact, in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces were missing.The people stared -- how can he say his heart is more beautiful, they thought? The young man looked at the old man's heart and saw its state and laughed. "You must be joking," he said. "Compare your heart with mine, mine is perfect and yours is a mess of scars and tears.""Yes," said the old man, "yours is perfect looking but I would never trade with you. You see, every scar represents a person to whom I have given my love - I tear out a piece of my heart and give it to them, and often they give me a piece of their heart which fits into the empty place in my heart, but because the pieces aren't exact, I have some rough edges, which I cherish, because they remind me of the love we shared. Sometimes I have given pieces of my heart away, and the other person hasn't returned a piece of his heart to me.These are the empty gouges -- giving love is taking a chance. Although these gouges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of the love I have for these people too, and I hope someday they may return and fill the space I have waiting. So now do you see what true beauty is?"The young man stood silently with tears running down his cheeks. He walked up to the old man, reached into his perfect young and beautiful heart, and ripped a piece out.He offered it to the old man with trembling hands. The old man took his offering, placed it in his heart and then took a piece from his old scarred heart and placed it in the wound in the young man's heart. It fit,But not perfectly, as there were some jagged edges. The young man looked at his heart, not perfect anymore but more beautiful than ever, since love from the old man's heart flowed into his.They embraced and walked away side by side.........May Allah bless us to embrace our sisters and brothers with love, kind, care and compassion.

Why do women Cry

2011-10-12T15:49:00.001+08:00

Why do women Cry

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman,"she told him. "I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him andsaid, "And you never will." Later the little boy asked his father, "Whydoes mother seem to cry for no reason?" "All women cry for no reason," wasall his dad could say. The little boy grew up and became a man, stillwondering why women cry. Finally he put in a call to God. When God got onthe phone, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?" God said: "When Imade the woman she had to be special. I made her shoulders strong enough tocarry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort. I gaveher an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that manytimes comes from her children. I gave her a hardness that allows her tokeep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family throughsickness and fatigue without complaining. I gave her the sensitivity tolove her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child hashurt her very badly. I gave her strength to carry her husband through hisfaults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart. I gave herwisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimestests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly. Andfinally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to usewhenever it is needed." "You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a womanis not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the wayshe combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, becausethat is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."

Jokes of the day~

2011-10-11T20:21:00.002+08:00

Here is the story of an Imam who got up after Friday prayers and announced to the people:"I have good news and bad news. The good news is, we have enough money to pay for our new building program. The bad news is, it's still out there in your pockets."

MY PERSONALITY :)

2011-10-11T20:21:00.001+08:00

My personality.how? same ornot? hhahahahaha!*self-praises

*Trailblazer

siti, as the "Trailblazer", you are self-directed and self-motivated, naturally gravitating towards roles of leadership. You can display a significant amount of creativity through your ability to solve problems utilizing your logical and analytical skills. Holding high standards for yourself and others, you tend to evaluate people and tasks based on results, and in times of pressure can be objective, direct, and perhaps uncommunicative in your approach. Likewise, you tend to be a provider and care greatly for family and friends.

Your level of dedication, endurance, and drive may allow you to excel in many areas, especially those where you can make decisions and work at your own pace. You tend to base your evaluations on logic and facts rather than emotion and will stand behind your choices. Your creative thinking and reasoning may make you a great "idea person". This paired with your forward drive and attention to detail helps you to turn your visions into realities.

There is no task you undertake without thoughtful planning and careful execution. With your level of diligence, discipline, and the ability to both create and maintain a system, you have the goods to rise to expert status. You have a strong ability to focus and complete significant tasks in very little time due to your strong resolve and propensity towards organization and systems. You consistently demonstrate precision and accuracy, paying close attention to your actions. With a talent for creating order, you typically display a high level of quality in your work and can focus until your goal is accomplished. You don't give up easily and for this reason, others may look to you for guidance and leadership.

Food for Thought

You prefer to communicate and be communicated with in a clear, concise manner. Others, who exhibit a less direct style of communication, may take longer to say what they mean or say it in unclear ways. Be aware of this and try to practice patience in these situations.

You can be very direct and uncommunicative under pressure. In these moments, bring your attention to the way you communicate and how others may experience your tone and body language.

Being a self-directed person, you do not like to be rushed or pressured and work best independently or in small groups. You probably prefer leadership roles and may have a difficult time with other's authority or rules.

Because of your high standards and attention to detail, you may tend to be critical of yourself and perhaps others.

You may show love, affection, and dedication through tasks, precision, and concrete gestures and want to be acknowledged for it as such. Likely, you also want to be shown love in a similar way that you show it. You may be frustrated around a more emotionally-motivated style, as they will show and need to be shown love through affections and personal attention.

Because you take pride in the quality of your work, you may take criticism personally. At the same time, you desire recognition for your hard work, determination, and dedication.

Jokes of the day~

2011-10-08T22:04:00.001+08:00

A man is taking a walk in Central park in New York. Suddenly he sees a little girl being attacked by a pit bull dog . He runs over and starts fighting with the dog. He succeeds in killing the dog and saving the girl's life. A policeman who was watching the scene walks over and says: "You are a hero, tomorrow you can read it in all the newspapers: "Brave New Yorker saves the life of little girl" The man says: - "But I am not a New Yorker!" "Oh ,then it will say in newspapers in the morning: 'Brave American saves life of little girl'" – the policeman answers. "But I am not an American!" – says the man. "Oh, what are you then? " The man says: - "I am a Saudi !" The next day the newspapers says: "Islamic extremist kills innocent American dog.

Rules of Joking in Islam

2011-10-08T21:56:00.001+08:00

Salam guys!i'll be posting some jokes randomly.so this is the rules.dont take it seriously ok? btw i don't own any of the jokes content.thanks!
-meddy dot

Rules of Joking in Islam

Some people joke too much and it becomes a habit for them. This is the opposite of the serious nature which is the characteristic of the believers. Joking is a break, a rest from ongoing seriousness and striving; it is a little relaxation for the soul. ‘Umar ibn ‘Abd al-‘Azeez (may Allaah have mercy on him) said: “Fear joking, for it is folly and generates grudges.”

Imaam al-Nawawi (may Allaah have mercy on him) said: “The kind of joking which is forbidden is that which is excessive and persistent, for it leads to too much laughter and hardening of the heart, it distracts from remembrance of Allaah, and it often leads to hurt feelings, generates hatred and causes people to lose respect and dignity. But whoever is safe from such dangers, then that which the Messenger of Allaah (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) used to do is permissible for him.”

Sa’d ibn Abi Waqqaas said: “Set a limit to your jokes, for going to extremes makes you lose respect and incites the foolish against you.”

The amount of joking should be like the amount of salt in one’s food.

The Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said: “Do not laugh too much, for laughing too much deadens the heart.” (Saheeh al-Jaami’, 7312)

‘Umar ibn al-Khattaab (may Allaah be pleased with him) said: “Whoever laughs too much or jokes too much loses respect, and whoever persists in doing something will be known for it.”

So beware of joking, for it “causes a person to lose face after he was thought of as respectable, and it brings him humiliation after esteem.”

A man said to Sufyaan ibn ‘Uyaynah (may Allaah be pleased with him), “Joking is not right, it is to be denounced.” He replied, “Rather it is Sunnah, but only for those who know how to do it and do it at the appropriate time.”

Nowadays, although the ummah needs to increase the love between its individual members and to relieve itself of boredom, it has gone too far with regard to relaxation, laughter and jokes. This has become a habit which fills their gatherings and wastes their time, so their lives are wasted and their newspapers are filled with jokes and trivia.

The Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said: “If you knew what I know, you would laugh little and weep much.” In Fath al-Baari it says: “What is meant by knowledge here has to do with the might of Allaah and His vengeance upon those who disobey Him, and the terrors that occur at death, in the grave and on the Day of Resurrection).

Muslim men and women have to be inclined to choose righteous and serious friends in their lives, who will help them to make good use of their time and strive for the sake of Allaah with seriousness and steadfastness, good and righteous people whose example they can follow. Bilaal ibn Sa’d said: “I saw them [the Sahaabah] jokingly pretending to fight over some goods, and laughing with one another, but when night came they were like monks.”

Ibn ‘Umar (may Allaah be pleased with him) was asked, “Did the Companions of the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) laugh?” He said, “Yes, and the faith in their hearts was like mountains.”

So you have to follow the example of such people, who were knights by day and monks (i.e., devoted worshippers) by night.

May Allaah keep us, you and our parents safe on the Day of the Greatest Terror, those to whom the call will go out on that great Day:

“Enter Paradise, no fear shall be on you, nor shall you grieve”

[al-A’raaf 7:49 – interpretation of the meaning]

Signs of Allah in Our Tongues

2011-10-08T21:50:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wondered about your tongue? It is one of the wonderful creations of Allah. Allah Ta'ala gave each of us one tongue. But this one tongue is able to taste thousands of different types of food and drinks. If our taste buds on the tongue were to become inactive, we would not know the difference between an orange or a stone.

Moreover, like finger print, everyone has a different tongue print.

Relative to its size, tongue is also the strongest muscle in the human body. And it is the only muscle which is connected to only one side. The tongue is so strong that it can create a pressure on the roof of the mouth equivalent to the weight of two double decker busses!

The strongest muscle of our body, the tongue, has been created by Allah for us to glorify Him. Trully, with the help of this tongue, we are able to recite the Glorious Quran and talk about Allah's Greatness. Let us not spoil the tongue by backbiting, slandering and lying.

The Patient Old Man

2011-10-05T21:05:00.000+08:00

When passing through a mountain pass, a bedouin (villager) once came across an old man who was blind and who seemed to be afflicted with various ailments all over his body. It was clear that he was wasting away. He was even paralyzed and was constantly forced to remain in a seated position. The Bedouin could clearly hear him say, "All praise is for Allah, Who has kept me safe from ailments with which He has tested many among His creation; and He has indeed preferred me over many among those that He created."

"My brother!" exclaimed the bedouin. "What have you been saved from? By Allah, I think that you have been afflicted with every single kind of ailment!"

"Go away from me," said the old man, as he raised his head. "Do I not still have a tongue with which I can pronounce His Oneness, and with which I can remember Him every single moment? And do I not still have a heart with which I can know Him?"

These words of the old man were enough for the bedouin to repent to Allah for his sins and ask Him for forgiveness.

Remember, there is always someone else who is in more problem than you.

The Lion, Mice, Snake & Honeycom

2011-10-02T00:52:00.000+08:00

The Lion, Mice, Snake & Honeycomb

Imam Ghazali told story of a man walking in the jungle. A roaring lion ran towards him and the man ran as fast as he could to escape from it. He noticed a well in front of him and he jumped inside hoping to escape from the lion.

As he was falling inside the well, he grabbed onto the rope and saved himself. The man was so relieved but when he looked down he saw a big snake at the bottom of the well. It had its jaws wide open ready to swallow him up.

The man then looked up and saw two mice nibbling at the rope. A black mouse and a white were both chewing into the rope. The scary lion was still prowling outside the well.

The man's heart was pounding as he wondered how he could escape from this. Then he noticed a honeycomb in front of him which had delicious honey dripping from it. He stuck his finger into the honey and put it inside his mouth. It was delicious and for a moment he forgot about the lion, the snake and the two mice chewing at the rope.

Imam Ghazali explained that the lion is like the angel of death which is always looming above us. The snake was like his grave which all humans will face. The black mouse and white mouse were like the day and night which are always nibbling at our life (the rope). The honey was like this dunya which with its momentary sweetness makes us forget the death and the eternal life.

source:http://www.therevival.co.uk

Did You Thank ALLAH (swt) For Your Eyesight?

2011-10-02T00:47:00.001+08:00

A blind boy sat on the steps of a building with a hat by his feet. He held up a sign which said: "I am blind, please help." There were only a few coins in the hat.

A man was walking by. He took a few coins from his pocket and dropped them into the hat. He then took the sign, turned it around, and wrote some words. He put the sign back so that everyone who walked by would see the new words.

Soon the hat began to fill up. A lot more people were giving money to the blind boy. That afternoon the man who had changed the sign came to see how things were. The boy recognized his footsteps and asked, "Were you the one who changed my sign this morning? What did you write?"

The man said, "I only wrote the truth. I said what you said but in a different way."

What he had written was: "Today is a beautiful day and I cannot see it."

Do you think the first sign and the second sign were saying the same thing?

Of course both signs told people the boy was blind. But the first sign simply said the boy was blind. The second sign told people they were so lucky that they were not blind. Should we be surprised that the second sign was more effective?

"It is He, Who has created for you (the sense of) hearing (ears), sight (eyes), and hearts (understanding). Little thanks you give." [surah Al-Mu'minun; 78]

Who lives in the pineapple under the sea?

2011-10-02T00:21:00.002+08:00

not me of course!

Well.how are you guys today? i hope you guys had a great day.
i have not been great. the overwhelming feeling has taken control of me.thinking all the negative thoughts that i could not make it for Os. Well i should worry now, cause I dont think i studied at all. maybe i did,but its not convincing nor promising at all. F9 for all my subject is very ironic. with my absence for 3 papers,thats what an idiot do. I dont really know to do.

thats my update for today.thanks for listening spongebob (decide to name my blog,spongebob,or for short bob,coz i love him.)

2011-10-01T00:29:00.000+08:00

“We were given: Two hands to hold. Two legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find.”

Its 2011 for godsake.

2011-09-27T23:19:00.003+08:00

OK FINE! I ADMIT! I ADMIT that i purposely ditch this blog, well honestly i dont have the time. sorry guys.
(well,the truth is that, nobody will notice this, because in the first place nobody will even READ this blog soo...stop being arrogant. *slaps forehead*)

ok i realized that my last post was,last year, about my N'levels. How time flies, now i'm sitting for my O'levels.

This is really impromptu i never wanted to be back here,but i'm here anyways.
Dont ever asked me how's my life now,because its is such a chaos that i dont think i want or can remember about it.

urgh. i have to go, my books are flapping,waiting for me to ink'ed em.
soo stay tune webster! (yeah rite :S)

Ouh-no!

2010-03-19T09:09:00.003+08:00

ouh-no,omg! oke! relaxs,cool,chill,its goona be allright!
i think i was hit by a virus!! deadly one! can anyone there help me? helllooooo? 0_0!
this is the virus i hated the most for all my years being a blogger,a virus that makes you...........

like
lazy to update your BLOG! other words may describe it as Stagnant blog.i've been apathetic this few months,and have other GOOD-for-something stuff to do.Faked!

just to update you guys..
i've been studying,YES! you read well guys,i just wrote STUDYING!
mymymy....i had been agonized,and therefore,i almost finished my whole chemistry asst book yesterday! how retard.
been sleeping in class recently;fagged... totally exhausted from my like-will-never-end-kind of activities.my whole week was taken. weekends now,i have to study.damn..
come'on N'levels la der!
i think i have no more say in here
off to study!
bye!

The Bible on "Why did God Create Women?"

2010-02-16T11:12:00.001+08:00

Why did God create Woman from Man’s rib, when He could
have simply created her from dust, as He did Man? This
is a story that puts a beautiful touch on the
reasoning:

“When I created the heavens and the earth, I spoke
them into being. When I created man, I formed him from
the dust of the Earth and breathed life into his
nostrils. But you, woman, I fashioned after I breathed
the breath of life into man because your nostrils are
too delicate. I allowed a deep sleep to come over him
so I could patiently and perfectly fashion you. Man
was put to sleep so that he could not interfere with
the creativity. From one bone I fashioned you. I chose
the bone that protects man’s life. I chose the rib,
which protects his heart and lungs and supports him,
as you are meant to do.”

“Around this one bone I shaped you. I modeled you. I
created you perfectly and beautifully. Your
characteristics are as the rib, strong yet delicate
and fragile. You provide protection for the most
delicate organ in man, his heart. His heart is the
center of his being; his lungs hold the breath of
life. The rib cage will allow itself to be broken
before it will allow damage to the heart. Support man
as the rib cage supports the body.”

“You were not taken from his feet, to be under him,
nor were you taken from his head, to be above him. You
were taken from his side, to stand beside him and be
held close to his side. You are my perfect angel. You
are my beautiful little girl. You have grown to be a
splendid woman of excellence, and my eyes fill when I
see the virtue in your heart. Your eyes: don’t change
them. Your lips: how lovely when they part in prayer.
Your nose so perfect in form, your hands so gentle to
touch. I’ve caressed your face in your deepest sleep;
I’ve held your heart close to mine. Of all that lives
and breathes, you are the most like me.”

“Adam walked with me in the cool of the day and yet he
was lonely. He could not see me or touch me. He could
only feel me. So everything I wanted Adam to share and
experience with me, I fashioned in you: my holiness,
my strength, my purity, my love, my protection and
support. You are special because you are the extension
of me.”

“Man represents my image, woman – my emotions.
Together, you represent the totality of God. So man:
treat woman well. Love her, respect her, for she is
fragile. In hurting her, you hurt me. What you do to
her, you do to me. In crushing her, you only damage
your own heart, the heart of your Father and the heart
of her Father. Woman, support man. In humility, show
him the power of emotion I have given you. In gentle
quietness show your strength. In love, show him that
you are the rib that protects his inner self.

Dalam Laut,ada sungai(Found a ocean,with lake under it)

2010-02-15T21:16:00.000+08:00

SUBHANALLAH

Maha benar All a h dengan segala firman-Nya.

J ika anda seorang penyelam, maka anda harus mengunjungi Cenote Angelita, Me xic o. Disana ada sebuah gua. Jika anda menyelam sampai kedalaman 30 meter, airnya air segar (tawar), namun jika anda menyelam sampai kedalaman lebih dari 60 meter, airnya menjadi air masin, lalu anda dapat melihat sebuah "sungai" di dasarnya, lengkap dengan pohon dan daun daunan.

Namun pengkaji mengatakan, itu bukanlah sungai biasa, itu adalah lapisan hidrogen sulfida, namun nampak sepe rti sungai... luar biasa bukan? Lihatlah betapa hebatnya ciptaan Allah s.w.t.

About,love,success and wealth. read and learn..

2010-02-01T21:13:00.001+08:00

A woman came out of her house and saw three old men with long white beards sitting in her front yard. She did not recognize them. She said "I don't think I know you, but you must be hungry. Please come in and have something to eat."

"Is the man of the house home?", they asked.

"No", she replied. "He's out."

"Then we cannot come in", they replied.

In the evening when her husband came home, she told him what had happened.

"Go tell them I am home and invite them in!"

The woman went out and invited the men in.

"We do not go into a House together," they replied.

"Why is that?" she asked.

One of the old men explained: "His name is Wealth," he said pointing to one of his friends, and said pointing to another one, "He is Success, and I am Love." Then he added, "Now go in and discuss with your husband which one of us you want in your home?"

The woman went in and told her husband what was said. Her husband was overjoyed. "How nice!", he said. "Since that is the case, let us invite Wealth. Let him come and fill our home with wealth!"

His wife disagreed. "My dear, why don't we invite Success?"

Their daughter-in-law was listening from the other corner of the house. She jumped in with her own suggestion: "Would it not be better to invite Love? Our home will then be filled with love!"

"Let us heed our daughter-in-law's advice," said the husband to his wife.

"Go out and invite Love to be our guest."

The woman went out and asked the three old men, "Which one of you is Love? Please come in and be our guest."

Love got up and started walking toward the house. The other two old men also got up and followed him. Surprised, the lady asked Wealth and Success: "I only invited Love, Why are you coming in?"

The old men replied together: "If you had invited Wealth or Success, the other two of us would've stayed out, but since you invited Love, wherever He goes, we go with him. Wherever there is Love, there is also Wealth and Success!!!"

Peace and blessing be upon our beloved Ahmad[s] and his family.

2010-01-05T16:33:00.002+08:00

Maher zain - The Chosen One

Let's all salawat upon our beloved prophet [s] and his family at least 100 times per day,the person who's love upon us is more than our mother.For every salawat we make upon to our beloved,Allah will increase His compassion on us and forgive our sins and Allah will givesalawat/rahamah upon us 10 times more.

And salawat help us to purify our hearts from any evil intentions and sickness.It will give us more rizq in here and hereafter.inshaAllah.For salawat is syifa'ul qulub, cure for the heart.It will increase our iman and Allah will only accept our prayers with the beginning of basmaLlah and salawat.

And RasuluLlah [s] stated that if a person salawat upon him 100 times a day,Allah will give him 100 hajat,70 in the akhirah ,after lifeand 30 in this world.

And if we salawat upon him [s] 1000 times a day,the person will not die until he/she receive(news) the glad tidings of jannah,paradise.

And the person who is closest to the prophet [s] in yaumulqiyamah,the day of resurrection is the person who salawat upon himalot.

If a person salawat upon him 10 times in the morning and 10 times in the evening that person will receive his shafa'ah in yaumulqiyamah.

Or you can also read Qasidahs like,Burdah,Diba'ee etc.

Some people might says it bid'ah since we're raising (tinggi-tinggikan)the prophet [s] just like the christian who raising(tinggi-tinggikan?) Isa [as].But how can we not raise our beloved Mustafa [s] to the highest level? He is the greatest person in history,without him,nothing will be created.And we raise him [s] as the greatest abduLlah,servant of Allah,not like christian,who raisedIsa [as] until he became like a God,and that is wrong.And how can it be bid'ah when even the prophet [s] like people making qasidah and praising him.In qasidah burdah,there's one part where it says 'wainnahu khairu khalqiLlahi kullihimi-and he [s] is the greatest creation of Allah among the entire creation' Bala!.And that sentence was actually cam from prophet [s] himself when Imam Busairi meet him in his dream,and he was stuck with one sentence where prophet [s] helped him out on that sentence.The story is quite long but you can research on it.And how can you be sane when you are in love with a person? You'd definitely be insane when you're in love! For sure.

Lastly,let's salawat upon him [s].

Allahumma solli wa sallim wa barik alaihi wa ala alihi wa sohbihi wasallim

until now,help us out if there is any mistakes and if you know anything more,then do share it with us.BarakaLlah fiik.And i really hope that you guys fasted during yaumul Ashura and before it.

wslm wr wb.

aiya..get married? are you trying to pull my legs?

2010-01-02T13:14:00.002+08:00

oke..nenek really make my day by ending 2009 with asking me get married by the age of 20? heh..laugh now.
this is super hilarious and super random moments.
its started when,i visited my grands at Bedok last year.lol? oke/less then a week.heh.or maybe..few days ago.
after i ate this and that,which nenek cooks for me.
And i was relaxingrelaxing,then she talks about somewhat abt Paman's friends,blablabla.
then asked me to get married WITH HIM?! and straight away at the age of 20?!
my first expression is to...LAUGH ofcourse la..tell me who will never laugh at this kind of situation.its is very funny that you have to get married at the the age of 20 with somebody you don't even know.and which it also means that i have to have sex with somebody i don't even love? might as well i break my virginity and have sex with every guy that i dont even know.
NONSENSE!!

nenek(grandma):eyh! Dah(is wat she called me instead of mi(dah)) i want you to get married with this guy,Paman's friend la.
me:huh? HAHAHAhaha! you very funny la nenek!hahhaha! really2 funny sia!!haha...
i turn to datuk and says..

me:Atok! nenek buat kelakar(grandpa!grandma make a joke!) lah,haha...(and Atok smile)
*silence*
it gave me creeps when my grandma gave me that serious eyebrow look.
so i end up keeping quiet and she continue with her speech about family planning all..ya..-__-=

very funny.aiyah..how to became a Lawyer like that.20 is the age where i can enjoy and Still schooling!
ok,thats how i End my 2009,and lets drop that hot topic!

now, let see what we have here...
marvey,marvey 2010...new year for me and for all!
can i have a hug from everyone? see you guys in school definy!
hola 2010! i'll hope you would be nice this time,and give me a good time please.and please takes things slow,don't rush me oke? i love you year! tata...!

This is not what i wished to be.so don't blame me.

2009-12-26T21:45:00.002+08:00

Let start with "In the name of God, most Gracious, most Compassionate". and Peace be upon you.

As i could reflect back my childhood times, On how I saw faces of my Mum that actually felt hopeless and unbearable on my Endless Tantrums,loud cries and sickness.Yes,without my father by her side to share her burden.She left me in the age of 5-6 years'ol. I don't blame her for that, i don't have the ability and the power to blame her on Why she left me for.Because the point is,She has gone away,far far away,for good.

And i don't really get the meaning of real parents love,because,either i don't catch it nor i just don't have it.Therefore i used crave for people to love me.And funny thing is that,i don't really know how to express/show my love to people that i really love.I'll be over-protective,keep on advising her/him not to follow my way.i'll be harshed and in the end hurt the person.
i've always thought that,creating problems,making scenes,do stupid stuff like fighting,being rebellious,i love to do stuff that seeked attention...
because why?

First,i think that God is unfair,he gave some people a F***ing good lives,with parents,but why not me?so,i want the attention plss!!

Second,i'm too stupid not to know or even cared about why God is doing this to me,nor i don't even cared that he's actually existed.

Third,i want to show people,how,stupid,strong,ego,stubbon and violent am i.I can do whatever i want,as if the world is mine.

I used to blamed myself on everything that happened.I used to Give up on my life and plan for Suicide.I used to locked up myself in my own room for days,wasting my Damn tears without sleeping.And Depression used to be my best friend.

When i thought i'm actually strong enough to cope everything,i don't like too share my problems because i don't thinks theres a need to,so i stuff every problems to my f***ing head.and hides my weakness in my heart.Keep saying that "I'm ok" when actually im not.keep forcing myself that i can "do it!" when the fact was that I've lack of strength.Keep on smiling and made up lame jokes.I want to hide that "I used to be a PROBLEMATIC CHILD" sign that sticked or even nailed onto my forehead,for that freaking long years!! Wasn't that easy. is like an example of"once you were an prostitute,you ARE A PROSTITUTE FOREVER!!"
when i felt that it was unfair as we DESERVED a second chance.what for the colourfull ribbons for charity??!! should i take drugs to get second chance?? soo?? hellya!

After years,days,minutes and seconds passed.Than i realized the stupidest and silliest mistakes and sins i've done.And all this while,God has been watching me all the time,recording my countless Sins.
God loves me soo much that He gave me such Challenge to test whether His slave can actually accept it and bear with it.And i have to be strong to accept everything that came(or even another perfect word is "BANGED"?) to me.Its fated that my storyline are suppose to be eventually turn out like that. Everyone have their own problems,either big or small,everyone has it.Just don't give up as every tunnel has the light in the end,trust me,sooner or later you'll get the light in the right time.
and when i asked you talked, don't come to me and say "you would not understand my problems!" and keep saying that your stress. and i'll give you a big tight slap.When i talked to you,that means i wanna help you.

thats all for today.May god bless ya!

Subhanallah..think about it guys,how lucky we are.

2009-12-04T21:50:00.002+08:00

Salam.

May Peace and Blessing Of Allah Be Upon You.

There's something i wanted to share with you guys but didn't have the time to post it. If you haven't heard about a guy named Nick Vujicic-a person without arms and limbs.Try watch this Video,I promise that You'll defenitely be inspired by his words.Even though he was born with neither arms nor limbs,he's capable to do anything that mostly a normal person can do.

Sometimes i wonder,even though he live without both arms and limbs.Some how he still manage to survive in this world without it and he never give up even if he fail or fall down over a 100 times. What about us ? We sometimes fall down once in our life dah nangis(cry) like a bunch of CRY BABIES-even though we still have BOTH arms and legs.Weak ah like this..It doesn't mean that we fail it's already the end of the world rite??There's a lot of chance next time lah..

hmm,so i think we should also need to put the 'never-give-up-spirit' in our life.And also we need to have husnul-zhon(positive thinking) in our life so that our life will be more peaceful if we think about something positively.For example maybe if we failed our exam even though we had studied and work hard on it, if we think su'ul-zhon(negative thinking) we would complain like "Oh GOD! why do I deserve this?!! I studied so hard!!But WHY??! WHY??!Why are you doing this to ME!!" oh SHUT-UP!I've seen alot of people complain like that,some how it irratates me.BUT if you think it as husnul-zhon we would go like "Maybe GOD wanted to give me this as a sign to work harder,maybe there's a good reason for it.." well,that's better.If you think it as like that i assure You that your life will be more peaceful.

That's my opinion anyway.Untill now,

Salam wa Rahmatullah wa Barakatuh Alaik

WE,girls are like apples on the trees..

2009-12-04T21:18:00.000+08:00

Girls are like apples on trees.The best ones are at the top of the tree.The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt.Instead,they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren't as good,but easy.So the apples at the top think something is wrong with them,when in reality ,they're amazing.They just have to wait for the right boy to come along ,the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.

Why you choose to be ISLAM?

2009-12-02T19:38:00.002+08:00

Buddha is peace,Jew is peace,Christian is peace and Islam is peace.
All religion is peace,they are craving for peace,they wish for peace because all of them believe in the existence of God since God Himself is Peace.
While the freethinkers or atheist don't believe in the existence of God or any other 'miracles' in this earth,they only believe in logic,they'll try to proof scientifically that God doesn't exist and that all of this existence is just a coincidence,Big Bang Theory etc. The word 'free-thinkers' which basically means that they are free to think of anything,their thinking can be widely spread or think about anything in this world,is it not?sorry if I'm wrong.But they are so obsessed about thinking outside,they are so blind that they can't even see the miracles of God outside since they are not actually thinking and they are even blinder that they can't even see the miracles or mystery of God within themselves.Are they not thinking what is the difference between the dead and alive?are they not thinking why the living is still breathing while the dead are not?are they not thinking that they are just like robots,except of metals,they have organs inside of them?Robots need electricity to go on 'living' while us humans need air,food and drink.But what really makes the living difference from the dead?
The living,they have soul,while the dead doesn't.No one can explain the mystery of the soul because it's God's secret.Not even the most intelligent scientist,The soul is already illogical,it's something beyond humans knowledge.Does the soul has a form? or how does it look like? are the soul in the hands? or maybe the lungs? or maybe the brain? Only God knows where. But some scholars says that it's within the heart while others says it might be everywhere or not exactly in the heart.God knows Best.
Calling themselves free thinkers,while they are not exactly thinking freely since they have already think in one mindset.
Our friends,if we think seriously about the existence of the world,the existence of God and we do not give favour to any of our thinking and we are fair with it all,Allah will definitely guide us.and all the doubts will be erased.
While religion is but a way to find God and be with Him.And Islam is the one only Truth while the other idols worshippers are not.

Shaykh Bawa Muhaiyadden (r) always reminded us to ask this question:
Who am I?Why am I here?Who is God?
which means that am I doing this thing for God?am I getting closer to Him?am I born to do this?
every time we do something,we need to ask ourselves.Slowly when we ask,we'll try to solve it,when we do,we are getting closer andcloser to Him.

We will stop here for now,sorry if there's any mistakes,please do inform us.All good from God,while others are from us. It's are reminder for ourselves and to all of our beloved.
Until now,

wassalam 'alaikum wr wb.

another intresting story...

2009-11-29T15:46:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY, NOVEMBER, 2009

Why do women Cry

picked from sister NurulJannah,may god bless her...

2009-11-22T17:51:00.001+08:00

Its just about fire.

Fire that Allah swt has dipped into the sea 70 times.

Try burning your finger.

Or just placing your hand above the fire, without touching the flames.

Hot isn't it?

Imagine something 70 times hotter than that.

I don't know if any of you is finding it hard imagining that.

But I do have a hard time.

I read somewhere that someone kept a lighter in his pocket,

Just to remind him how hot hell is.

Everytime he tries to do something bad...

Or just thinks about something bad, he'd flick his lighter..

Then poof, the desire is absolutely gone.

Cool huh?

I'm too chicken to do that.

Huargh.

Yeeks.

A few days before, my mom related a story that Ustaz Hasbi told during one of his classes.

Its about this guy.

Pious like what.

His tongue never stopped from saying the zikr since he was 7 years old.

Imagine that.

Amazing right?

Since he is pious, some people 'follow' him.

Like he has 'sessions' where people seat and zikr wih him.

Sommmeeething like that.

One day, when he was having one of those 'sessions',

There was a guy who came to that 'session', smelling very bad.

The pious person ignored the guy.

He just commented about how bad he smelt to himself.

Like: "What a smell."

Something like that.

He thought it to himself then walked away.

One day, this pious man died.

He was judged by Allah.

Allah asked the malaikat where the man's place was; Naar(Hell) or Jannah(Heaven).

They answered:

Hell

Of course the man was surprised.

He started to protest.

"I've never stopped saying your name since I was seven until the very last day of my life, and I'm being put in Hell?"

So Allah swt asked the malaikat to weigh the man's good deeds and bad deeds.

His good deeds: All the zikr he has done.

Which is quite a lot, don't you agree?

His bad deeds: The one time he said something to himself about the man who smelt.

Which, to us, is so little.

He just said it in his heart.

Seems like its no biggie, right?

So they weighed them both on the Mizan(Balance).

The pan with the bad deeds was heavier than his good deeds.

Heavier.

Like what right.

So he got dragged into hell.

So imagine.

He talked bad about a person.

Just in his heart.

And it weighed more than his good deeds of almost a lifetime of zikr.

Now mirror ourselves.

We barely say Allah's name outside solat.

AND we talk bad about people.

How will our measure be?

Heavier on the good deeds or on the bad deeds?

Sure, every ummah of Rasulullah SAW is going to enter Jannah AFTERbeing punished for all his bad deeds in Hell.

BUT.

If one day in hell is like 7000 years.

How long would it take if you were sentenced to, say, 10 years in hell.

7000 x 365 x 10 years?

We dont even live that long.

Na'uzubillahminzalik.

Astaghfirullah.

Indeed, we don't deserve Paradise, Ya Allah. But we can't bear to face Hell, Ya Allah..

30 October 2009

2009-10-30T16:47:00.004+08:00

Yes,its the the last day of school.
And I'm still under working on how to convince myself that 2010 is actually coming near.
The memory of 3N3'09 is still lingering in my mind,as if i've just entered 3N3 yesterday and now,we will be separated and leaving the class forever.

my memories with 3N3...
Cries,Laughters,Fights,Co-operations,Contributions,Charity work,
Vandalism, Thief,Smokers,Jokers,Pranks,Sabotages,Rebellious,
Smart,Cutes,Soccer,Sec 3 camp, Perseverance,Efforts,SYF,Inter-class,
Class deco,Cross-country,C'est La Vie,Last min study...
and a lot more to mention,each and every one of 3N3 would understand what i mean. :)

My class may be the Second class,and had the worst attitudes among all classes.Sometimes i hated to be in there.Worst than a zoo,people might think.I just hoped and pray hard that i would get out from that bunch of people that makes me suffocate.Now after almost a year,things are differ from what i thought.I gonna miss them,but sorry not in my class,not anymore please...i need the space to breath.And i love my new class, 4A3'10 :)
New chapters are beginning,and i can't wait.It's time for us not to make the same mistakes as life cycle.As every minutes,we are getting older,whatever happens now,we have to take our own risk and the responsibility to bear whatever causes and effects that we done, particularly our crimes and sins.

Lastly,For the closing chapters of 3N3 last day,and farewell to my Principle,Mr NG,bye bye.

^^
loves me to you all...

I felt more contented now...

2009-10-08T19:16:00.004+08:00

Starting off with some picas :)

my nephews,in blue,muhd darwisy(johor)
cousins(johor)
counsins(singles) pure and virgin :)
Mercun(johor only)

..After so long..
I've breath in deeply for my last paper.
Having the paper was like forever,
Exam fever is finally over,
now I'm back as a slacker.
-random poem

Mood for Hari Raya Aid was completely off,
it does not feel the same anymore,
I prefer Fasting month more,whereby I had learnt how to self-control,understand more how unfortunate people felt,charity and to draw myself nearer to Allah s.w.t.
This year was the first time I actually goes for Teraweh,with friends and most of the time with my loving Family.
The feelings was indescribable.And trust me,the feelings was like heaven.
I felt lighter than ever. :)
As this was the First year i celebrated Hari raya with my aunt,that i called Mama,with two Brothers and two sisters.was fun and exiting.
Actually the atmosphere was different,as my uncle.whom i called him Baba,passed away this year.So we did'nt do much.
We actually celebrated first raya in JB with my uncle and aunts whom lives in JB.
It has been three person so far in the family that passed away.it has been very tough for me and for all.
I'll just pray that Allah s.w.t has put them in where all the good people stays,as they are the good people who thereafter deserves heaven.Amin.
Now i just hope and prays that i could became a better person that would make Mama and Baba proud.
The deeds that they had given me,could not be return in form of money or life.

Mama
,I'm sorry for all my wrong doings,its all unintentional.For now.I only could give you all my love,care and Doa for blessing to you.I know,I'm always troubled you since I was a kid.I'm touched for all this while.you had given me all the love and care that I needed.I will cherish you till i Die.I promised myself to take care of you and protect you from any harm.You are the one and only one that can understand my feelings in and out.Nobody but you.
thank you Mama.

Al-fateha: Arwah dan Arwahyarhamah,
Dadi Mariam,Abg Achmad and Baba Shariff

Thats all for today.

For the first time,i'm being happy again

2009-08-02T17:27:00.003+08:00

SUNDAY 1AUG2009
photagraphy session; Proudly present,
THE CLIQUE

The last session with our photography guru;
STANLEY KOH

The most exiting session we had for the last day
that is Studio Shooting
wasn't easy for this job.
But Alhadullilah,we finally manage and learn from professional guidance.
i'm starting to love this photograhpy club we had.
collecting money for D5000.
i'm speechless,yet i gonna miss stanley and his studio.

2009-07-27T21:03:00.002+08:00

Rules:
It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers,
enter yours, and tag ten people.

Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following
questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person
before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers.
You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the
boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name : Siti Hamidah Iskandar

2. A four letter word: shit

3. A boy's name: shawn

4. A girl's name: sheila

5. An occupation: social worker

6. A colour: sexy pink =)

7. Something you'll wear: snickers

8. A TV series: suster ngesot

9. A food: satay

10. Something found in the bathroom: soap

11. A place: sakuntala food palace =)

12. A reason for being late:S got stuck in the zip =)

13. Something you'd shout: Shole!

14. A movie title: shark boy and lava girl

15. A drink: soda?

16. A musical group: SS501

17. An animal: snake?

18. A street name: sesame street =)

19. A type of car: Swift

20. The title of a song: spotlight

< life and there after >

2009-07-26T15:44:00.002+08:00

yesterday,
went to masjid kassim with family(the ladies)
As usual attended a talk about beginning of our life and hereafter.
i hoped to know more detailes on DOOMSDAY.

school.
as always,i miss 2008,those fun times we had,the memories i had now,
seems to be very vulnerable.
I had been tolerating 3N3 for the past 7 month in 2009.
I felt like throwing myself in the dustbins,recycled one i mean.
To be process into a better things/human being.
My hope is just vanished,to change in 2009.
People has been feeding me scrape,shit and nonsense.
And to those who never replace the dustbins,it will became smelly,rotten and bad.
Thats what i would be,but,not the smelly part.
I will explode,became nasty,bad,and attitude.
nonsense.
i couldn't blame for the pity teachers who ever ends up in the JUNGLE/? 3N3
i have been replacing my friends into studying.
there's a gap.
not brands,
but gap/spaces in our relationship.
but foremost before i end,
i would like to apologies to AHMAD KHIDHIR BIN KHAIRUL ANUAR,for my silliest mistakes.
i know,my behaviours do sucks sometimes,just let it go okey?

24 June 2009

2009-06-26T10:41:00.002+08:00

I was up as early as 7 am,
to get ready to meet grandpa and grandma.(atok and nenek)
since I've got appointment with liren for a monthly counseling session,at 10am.
And i can't deny that i miss my grandparents so much.
when i reached The House at 9am,
my smile widen,to see my grandma is already there sitting on the sofa.
my eyes stray looking around The House searching for my beloved Atok.
I've not thrown away The House,house keys.
Because i know,I'll be at The House monthly to visit them.

I miss the smell of The house
I crave those Atok and Nenek 's time together
Old times kept flashing over in my memory
I'm back,here in The house,where the memories were kept.saved.

Nenek made me chicken sandwich,and two sweet corns for me.
i do rushed off from home,and did not have time to get my breakfast,thank god she made me one,sweet breakfast.
Atok was not around when i came.shopping
i brought atok and nenek masala thosai,and beancurd.
when atok was not around,nenek told me something that moves my heart.

"mida,asal tak datang atau telefon atok?atok rindu tau kat mida.atok beli jagung tu,bile die tau mida nk datang,dia tau mida suke jagung kan?,atok pernah bilang nenek,yang mida suka sanggat dengan jangung,sebab tu dier belikan"...."midah tak sayang atok lagi? tak sayang nenek lagi?"(nenek sobbing)

And tears running down my cheeks non-stop.i tried not to make it obvious that i cried.
and atok came back from "shopping",
i wipe away my tears,and i smile and run to Atok.
And he smiles too,with his shimering eyes,i greet him with greatness.

its 10am,and i have to go,we chat along,while they eating the thosai.
and i promised to visit them every month.atleast.
i give a kiss in the cheeks,for my goodbye.
i was out,and tears downpouring.
in my heart, i say to them,
"i love you atok"
"i love you nenek"
and i hope they hear that from their heart.

I need something new for myself

2009-06-22T15:28:00.002+08:00

I am pretty not sure of myself
i just want a new look after this june holiday
something extremely crazy,
and people would not even noticed that it was even me.
so far i had my new spectacle done.
next week i want a haircut,
short haircut maybe?

Yesterday,Fathers day.
HAPPY FATHER's DAY, to Arwah BABA
and also,to my loving ATOK
lastly to,my FATHER
.....BABA....
i know you has gone leaving us few months ago,
i want to thank you for all the love you ever splashed over me,
and treated me more like your own child,
i'm touched and moved by your warmth you've given.
i never had the chance to say thank you and i love you.
i hope there's a time when you are around,
you felt that i love you BABA.
you were always there to ease me,
to let me get away from the old witch,
i know sometimes MAMA and BABA,
being hurt caused by the old lad.
BABA,rest in peace
i love you.
AL-FATEHAH.

>>>ATOK<<<
the one wise and loving grandfather i ever had.
the one who was not tired to cycled me back and forth from kindergaten till im pri 5
i have hurted you more than enough,since i am a kid.
yes i know,i'm a troubled child.
even though i had move out from The House,
i'm still thinking of you atok,
sometimes i do want to visits you,
but i just hate to see that old witch in the house.
Can't you see she is using you atok?
she puts you in spell,
wake up atok!
nevermind atok,when i grow up,i will buy house and you can stay with me.
yes,just both of us okay? i will take care of you.
i love you atok,HAPPY FATHER"S DAY..

***MY FATHER***
whatever happends you are still my FATHER.
happy father's day ayah.

speaks louder than words

2009-06-08T13:02:00.004+08:00

sorry ya,out-station for 1 week =)

2009-06-05T20:19:00.003+08:00

howdy pals!
sorry for the longed-waiting-stories for past weeks.
it had been a great week for me since last Saturday and now,Friday.
As last sat,i attended this motivational,like inspirational talks about Olympics.
Basically its just like a day camp,from 8am till 10pm.
The title is Youth Olympic Awareness.
all throughout the day,we played old Olympiad games.
something you may not know.and also i am appreciated to met our Olympic sprinter;
C.KUNALAN
i gave him two thumbs up for his funny and inspirational lectures
(a round of claps for him!)
overall i enjoyed my Saturday,at least.

1 June-5 June 09
(Pulau Ubin Outward Bound Singapore)
Today,just coming back from my "outstation".
Definitely,i miss Ubin now.
i met a few nice and funny acquaintance during my camp.
As in being a watch 3 and a group named,Cousteau,
i miss all that less then 24 hour i reached home.
i've been 5 days there and my group now i felt like one big family.
along the way,they, whom i would never forgets and being captured in my heart forever.
i would love to tell you guys more about it.
But,my head now is spinning like "gasing" due to lack of sleep.
i hate my skin now,because it is way too tanned,maybe now black.
i would stop here for now,and to be continued,together with pictures tomorrow.
have a nice day
thank you!

replace that sour smile for me please

2009-05-26T19:00:00.002+08:00

something in my heart says,i still love you.

2009-05-26T18:08:00.003+08:00

We had gone through many things together
jokes,shops,lepak,laugh,girls etc
sad,happy,angry etc
Do you ever feel how sad am i not to see you by my side every morning?
i used to asked
eh where asyqin? eeh? asyqin tk datang?
now i think we are fallen apart
even though we are in hot cilli padi(sour faces and hot headed) event this few days
theres still a tiny place in my heart,
calling out you name
there is still a place where my heart says,
i still love you,
no matter how f***'ing hurt you had hurt me
don't yu ever know how hurt am i for you to post nasty things about me in YOUR blog?
never in my life being criticised like this in blogs
if i were to be the old medot you ever met
i would have been;
shouting at you vulgarly
post bad things about you in blogs
spamming your blogs
curse you to hell
dont you ever noticed,i been talking to you very very nicely,given you advised,a good advice
and what did you do?
post blogs about me,
curse me to hell,
using vulgarities to me.
even saying that i jump conclusions,misunderstood you
you know what?i don't knw you neither
because the new you,dont even know me at all
i prefer the old asyqin who atleast respected me
who never wrote to her blog about me
who atleast knows me better
eventhough she is worst then the new asyqin
she still have the sense of respect to me.
you never,ever once to sit back and think,watever i wrote to you is an good caring advise from you old pal,that actually miss you
all she have to do at you is worried and nags at you.
you shattered my heart into pieces
and congratulations
you let me down at once
i gave up my life relying on anyone from now on.

broken heart

2009-05-24T18:54:00.003+08:00

I'm angry,yes ANGRY
erghhhh!! Ya-Allah,tolong lah Ya-Allah,hamba mohon keampunan ke PadaMu Ya-Allah,atas segala kesalahan hamba.Tolonglah,tenangkan hatiku yang sedang marah ini Ya-Allah,Berikan hamba kesabaran untuk hamba merintasi lorong-lorong yang berliku ini Ya-Allah. YA-ALLAH,tolonglah sahabatku _ _ _ _ _ _,terangkan hatinya,bukalah pintu hatinya,tolonglah berikan dia cahaya untuk dia mendekati-MU Ya-ALLAH,untuk dia bangun dari kegelapan,berikan dia semangat Ya-ALLAH! Hamba minta keampunan mu Ya-ALLAH,atas,keabaian Hamba kepadaMU yang MAHA ESA,selama ini.Hamba bersyukur hamba diberi peluang untuk sahut nama MU YA-ALLAH! berikan ku semangat,tuhan ku,hamba lemah dengan cabaran MU ini.

Amin-amin ya rabal allamin

my exprience

2009-05-22T15:31:00.003+08:00

helllo,
honoured readers!

I'm sure most of you had received your MID-YEAR result,
to be frank,
I don't usually get a good results after i'm primary six
reasons?
i hanged out with bad company
i went out to fight
i smoked
i rebel to everyone
rude to teachers
dadi gone in 2005
my dearest cousin gone forever in 2006
i played computer games;since that time Maple is a very hot issue in LAN
i don't go home and do my homework,instead
i throw my school bag,wash out,and go back in the streets
to be honest i'm wild.
i thought that,no used studying when actually nobody would support from my back,
i have no mummy around me,mummy left me when i just started primary one
AYAH? gone behind the bars for ten years and backed in 2006
someone i love left me after an motocycle accident,
thats where i becaming more,more rebelious
i stayed with my grandparents for more then 14 years of my life,
before that,i was being pushed around like a toy in 3 houses.

my step grandmama;nenek used to nag at me
because i change drastically after ayah was back.
maybe because of pampered'ness i've got,
wealthy'ness,maybe for someone i missing soo much,or just my devil horns was freed atlast.
generally all i wanted that time is freedom.
now,my PSLE drench soo much,
serve me right,
i don't study for PSLE at all.not at all.i don't even know that i'm doing for PSLE that time.
if only i've studied,i should have gone express stream right now.
if only...

then i came across remembering arwah Abg Achmad and arwah dadi words before he and she gone
"study hard,make us proud we love you oke mida"
i cried
i regret forgetting his words
it seems like i was given a big invisible tight slap
from that day onwards i became a good girl in sec one 2007
with ayah on my side,
no long after that,i still can remember the date,7 august 2008
ayah went missing,till 15th august i've got to knw that he was back behind the bars.
the feelings i could describe
dissapointed,sad,angry,and mixed emotion
why? he had promised me not to went back
having me going through that isn't easy
after i calm down till september 2008
my dearest Father-like uncle passed away peacefully in sleep
the impact was really really awfull,
the uncle i loved soo much,
more then my own father
who never forgets to bring me with him wherever he goes
left me forver.
i really could not accept the fact he has to go,
after arwah abg achmad go,he always say he wants to follow
maybe baba now happily with abg achmad and dadi now.

baba,abg achmad and dadi i miss you,i won't forget to pray for yu guys,and serdekah surah yasin,
i'll take care of mama,don't worry,we'll be meeting you guys soon.we love you.

after that another invisible tight slap came across me,
i was given "wake-up call"
i changes to matured girl
i can talked openly with people,now
all with the help of Yayasan mendaki.
who has help me opening my eyes
and to see that im fortunate then other people
i can go through adversity,
now i'm more appreciate to other people around me.

i berSYUKUR as Allah s.w.t still give me chances to study and land me in normal academic,for three years now.
i have monkeys,hooligans,musketeers,minahs,ahbengs,ahlians,mats,emos etc.etc
in my class nw,such a nice combination.
everyday i went home having migraines,
until now i could not get a good results,
i failed two subjects for MYE
so now i have to work hard for end-of year exams.

"If you stop learning,thats means you stop living"

The way i love you,will not be as same as the way you love me

2009-05-21T17:10:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i felt that i wasn't alone,
but you made me feels that i am alone.
i thought,
you would be there for me
we've promised things would turns out alright
but what have you done?
you've pushed me through my limits,
you had enough pushing me out of the line.
What else you want me to suffer,
without you?
I never thought things will turns out rotten,
we have known each other for 3 years.
I had enough of being betrayed,and now you want to betray me?
i sacrificed for you,
i was once in the police station,
protecting your name being exposed,but i let myself in.
what else you want?
what else?
you have made me go through sufferings all alone.
you only think about yourself
you never felt how i felt.
My heart now closed for trust
i once trusted you all my life.
you've return me otherwise.
thank you soo much.

warna times

2009-05-19T21:44:00.005+08:00

........Dates at Mediacorp studio.........

hello.
Today,
unforgettable day of my life being interviewed live at WARNA 94.2FM;pradigma
with Dj Nona Kirana's presence,i felt loosen up.
i was tense waiting outside the studio,
"getting myself tangled up";i thought.
With my malay a B3 i dunno how am i going to survive in there.
With invisible perspire splashing out of my entire body.
i felt useless.
my words jumble up,its a crash
my brain's veins is like causeway jam to the JB.
but luckly,someone is there to help me fill in those gaps in my sentences
my heroine;
Dj Nona kirana.
without her,i would have died of people complaining for my gagap'ness
its horrible at first.
After a few talk with the wonderfull Dj,i'm abit loosen up and get used to the mic there.
nona kirana
few things i noticed;very friendly,pretty and perfect in my views,
she's now MY Idol!
tried to be cool,but i think useless.
i think its fun and something new to learn.
nw i knw its diff to became a Dj,but i love talking..
can i became a part time DJ?
gees..im greedy about jobs
why can't i just stay to what i want?
stay put medot,lawyer or legal sctry..thats it,stay to one
Okey Relax!
i need to do research,THATS it! research!
enough of having fun.
back to school!
toddles!

asian youth games

2009-04-12T14:09:00.000+08:00

2009-03-11T23:43:00.002+08:00

today..

taking IC infront of everybody is not what i want.it is soo lame.anyway it is just an IC,came on,we are only 15,what can we do with it?siglap is soo pathetic.and not to forget lame also.

i cant wait for my 24th march b'day,all the best Medot!

my class gonna made a skit about underage pregnancy.it is soo lame,
i mean,what it is all about?
as if you have not done it before..
im frustrated all over it,cause i dont feel good about doing it.
i dont want someone to feel bad about it.thats all.

talking about pregnancy
"sometimes i feel like talking to you openly.but i just scared that you are shy about it.
its not that i hate people that have done mistakes in their life,i want to give encouragement
and to help you build up you strength,yes i may be the juniors you talking about,
but i have exprienced alot more stupid things,that is all that i want to share.i want to be for you,when it cames the diffcult times.i want to be there helping you when you are trying hard risking youself between life and death."
i salute you as senior and as per person,i do salute you,for not giving up your life after someone "turn up"
i began to love you,for what you have been what you are all this time.you never change but still the same person that everyone adores.
yet you still put a mask everyday to face evryone in the day
you are my heroin to show some preserverance.
ill pray for you
for both of you and the little one's safety.
may Allah s.w.t shows you to the light.

*to you,senior

its me!!

2009-03-06T18:26:00.001+08:00

He ; the special one

2009-03-06T15:02:00.002+08:00

In loving memory,
Baba
31st January 2009

I miss you badly,
i miss your touch and your laughter.
i remembered how you treat me and siti zaidah fairly
buy things whatever i want,go wherever i want to go.
i remembered how you carried me when i'm a toddler.

I missed on how you comforting me and zaidah
If mama scold us till we cried.
you were always a person with most love for us,
very patient,kind and humble.

last year's Hari raya aidilfitri was celebrated without Abg Mad
now,we are missing Baba.
its hurts to see mama in deep broken heart,and those weary eyes,
i know she missed you alot.
i'll take care of Mama.
I promise you Baba,i will not let her stand on her own.

Now i have nobody to called by your name;BABA
the name i always called,
the name i always love
the name i called like my own,like no one else
but like a father,
A father that i always admired,and always want to came over
to your house atleast every weekend.
now Baba,i'll be living with your memories forever.
ill be here at your house taking care for zaidah.

I miss those times we always go to the beach
to picnic or even sleepover in the tent.
I've called you Baba for past 14 years of my life.
Not even before i reach fifteen,in march,
you've gone to reach the heaven.

I know you've missed Arwah Abg mad badly,
and keep saying you want to meet him.
I think your wishes had came true.
Allah s.w.t,had love you soo much
that you'd been taken by HIM.

I love you soo much,if you haven't know,you are the closest
uncle that i love,
after soo long i couldnt say i love you,
but i do love you,
and i knw its too late to say this but pls forgive me,watever mistakes ive done.

i hope we'll be meeting soon;in heaven

Al-Fatihah

2008 part 2

2008-12-31T23:17:00.002+08:00

2008,
the year i had two guys that steal my heart.
the year i got into job that really kills my feet for standing.
year that i attended a program that really makes me feels a hard work,and my sweat,
the year that makes me feels the change in my own classes.
the year..I've got/done/feel/made/etc..
event,kak eryns b'day,voluntary work at mendaki,outing with kak eryn and the girls,hi-tea with women professionals,outing with kak suzy and friends,movie marathon at Hort park,class chalet,2N2,shahira,solehah.Yayasan mendaki,4pm,night cycling,chatting with nadd in msn,reminiscing those childhood memories with zaidah,nicholas,hidayat,charles,old books,kak fatin and gang.

2008 dec 31

2008-12-31T23:05:00.003+08:00

can yu pls stay with me 2008? i gonna miss you..why must yu leave me? i love yu,dont yu love me? why must yu do this to me? pls dont leave..

goodbye 2008
the best,worst,sweet,sour..memories..
i just hope the time could stop for a while,for me to enjoy the last bits of 2008..i hate to say this,but 2008 is the best year i ever gone thru.
i hope for the best for new year tomrw.

2008-12-27T20:36:00.002+08:00

Tagged by: Kak fajrah<333
Q: If you had 3 wishes, what will that be? success in studies and career,settled down with happy family,and always be Allah's best slave.

Q: Have you ever think negetive things about the person you love but in the end it turn out to be the other way round? usually,it always turn out right.

Q: Would you change yourself for the person you love? yes i would if it turn out to be a better person,its good for us.

Q: Do you belief in Love? ofcourse love is in the air.

Q: How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love? if he realy sincere,and very resonable,worth it if i wait.

Q: If the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do? nothing? just ignore.

Q: Is there anything that made you unhappy these days? yes,but i always do somehting to made myself happy.no use to be sad.

Q: Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you're around the guy/girl you like? noo,but usually,can i say i have butterflies in my heart?

Q: Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head? yes,almost everyday i thnk how am i going to survive without my sisters in school..huahuahua

Q: Who are currently most important people to you? ofcourse family comes first,after that my friends and sisters.

Q: Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't? yes,many ppl hu read this will definatly know hu is the guy.haishhh..*heart pain

Q: Are you happy with your life?yes,no one could say no,im lucky then others hu are unfortunate than me.

Q: Would you give your all in a relationship?.not really,every relationship i've gone through always have a limit,like if yu haven married,would yu give your all(body for sex example?)no rite?

Q: What type of friends do you like?loyal,honest,not backstabber.

Q: Do you often wish there was something you could change? yes..i want to have superpowers,to change to all the unfortunate to fortunate,no family with family...all heart to be kind and honest.

Q: What will you look at first when you first set eye on a girl/guy? his eyes? eeyes is where yu have see his sincere.

Q: If your lover betrayed you, what will be your reaction? angry ofcourse,tiada maaf lagi bagimu.hahahha

tagged:kak fatin,kak rozz,zaidah,nadd,farsha

kak eryns big day

2008-12-19T22:09:00.001+08:00

My sweat,My sacrifices

2008-12-09T16:53:00.003+08:00

no more pls

2008-11-30T13:53:00.002+08:00

i just read zaidah's post.
yeah the most loving cuzz and closes cuzz i ever had.
and she talk about dying.
ouh no the most traumatic words i ever heard of.
i dun wanna left by anyone anymore,pls god protect my family frm awful dieseases.
plssssss!!
i lovve them more then i love myself

Random post

2008-11-30T13:31:00.002+08:00

i'm the person who will never let you down,honest, and faithful,i put others first but often worry too much.
positive:
attentive, well meaning, helpful, warm-hearted, altruistic, modest, devoted, philosophical, dutiful, discreet, intelligent and enthusiastic
negative:
nasty, mean-spirited, disagreeable, bad-tempered, self-righteous, judgmental, quarrelsome, accusing, nervous, anxious and impossible to live with..

I am adaptable, flexible and laid back.I am also independent,but in other words i like being part of the group. This is due in part to the support i crave, but it also makes me feel secure and self-confident.
In return,i am the faithful friends,very shy at first, then warm and affectionate.for me money and status does not matter.what is more concerned for me is the welfare of my family and friends and will do whatever it takes to help them out of a tight squeeze or a rough spot.

Once i determine a subject of interest, i usually master that before taking off for a new adventure.I like to finish what I've start.I are the honest and trustworthy people, ethically strong and morally kept.It makes me to be a loyal friends and companions.

so that all about me!

cant wait for this 4dec presentation at holiday inn atrium hotel

my thoughtfull mind

2008-11-16T22:05:00.003+08:00

today

after gone home frm ECP
cik nor visited datuk,abt his hand of 5stiches

thats not wat i wanna talk about.
well ths time i wanna flash back memories of my family
let me be alone in ths topic.
i wanna scream
alone in this blog.

paman;
i remembered how much you love to be with me
when we are younger,your attention is all over me,
we played together,yu cut my nails,yu feed me,yu buy me presents,yu doted me so much
i miss all of yur love.
yu changed alot.
i miss the old yu paman.
so sorry to trouble yu.

ilove you paman.

i don't feel the same anymore.
right now i feel that i want to run far away.

far away frm singapore.
far away frm people that i know.

I wanna my oldself back
i want to be the good girl that everyone praised.
thers soo many memories.
after late abg achmad gone far away.
i'm missing someone that always irritates me.
and i dun see anymore happy smiles on baba's face,and it saddens me,
alot...

and now i have some people in the family that cannot be trusted.
or maybe i trust and relay on them too much?
maybe now i sld'nt trust anyone anymore.
my mentor is rite maybe i sld be a loner instead.
but i think we shared things to someone outside family feels allot betta.
i need a break

And yes i do feel left out.

bodo ke peer

2008-11-16T21:37:00.002+08:00

To be honest.
i am very the damn sad today.
everything is not gg damn well.

today 161108
Is MY

ANNIVERSARY

with nick;my hero
but unfortunately he's caught with high fever
and it spoilt our day-out plan
he don't want to continue the plan
as he scard that the virus will be "transfered" to me

i was like?hello?today is our anni wad ar yu talking about??
well after the saddest morning that i had,

i went to east coast park to take some of fresh air
today its my best friends anni too,
(i'm sure she had a great time now)
then asyqin called to accompanny her to ECP

to take her pay
tunggu punye lame la siak.
8 bus to ECP HAS PASSED
and time balek pun same.
(atlast i gone back home alone)
she thinks i wad?babu keper.

i really had a bad day.if i know.i sld have gone to ECP alone
yes alone
tkper dier da mintak maaf pun
but in the mid of time
my long lost love fajrina called
i was like?omg?and all thanks to natasha,i owe her alot
without her,nana maybe sld'nt find me till now
shes my love,my bestfrend,my sister,my girlfrend and wtvr..everything
and now i can koll her when i in need
and we plan to have double date next time
that must happen,i'll make sure that nick was in secured with no viruses
and thats all for today
sorry to hu ever that i've hurt them.
sorry i really have a bad day,soo sorry

esp NICK,sorry dear,matin..etc,

its all about me.

2008-11-15T20:50:00.002+08:00

My new BF.
NICK
well to be frank,he's nice.
and also,i just had a decent break-up with my ex yesterday.
i don't care about any free VIP tickets to any shows
i just cared about how he treated me

he promised to take me frm school yest
and he breaked the promised.
and not only that i think i want to moved on
and there it goes for the fortunate...

NICK
and yes,he's a chinese

a second one indeed.

i miss my BK,
my ex.

And anyone outther
i love nick,dun dare to steal hem frm me

2008-11-11T22:41:00.000+08:00

Fiona xie

2008-11-09T20:38:00.000+08:00

last fri go to the event called BREATH at padang
and i saw FIONA XIE.
vid and pics of her will be posted soon!

roger out-

dog zodiac

2008-11-06T22:31:00.000+08:00

DOG?

Dogs are honest,straightforward,and friendly. They are extremely protective of themselves and their loved ones. With a passion for fair play and justice, they never fail to rescue you time after time. They may rant and rave, but they never rest until they right the wrong. They are true humanitarians and suffer with the world.In spite of their concern for others,social graces and fancy parties do not impress them. Having sharp eyes, they will see through people's motives. They are quite private about their personal lives and someone prying into their affairs make them secretive and withdrawn. Once you gain their confidence, they open up freely.

HAHA..

Once Dogs classify you, they rarely change their minds. There are few in-betweens. Dogs perceive things either in black or white. You are either friend or enemy. Luckily, they are good judges of character and have superb insight into human nature. Dogs are tolerant of their friends. Before they approve of you, the friendship must develop slowly with a variety of meetings and conversations. If they look you over and decide they can trust you, you remain in their hearts forever. If you need them, Dogs will be there.

When the time is right, Dogs work long and hard, but they know how to relax, and enjoy their home and loved ones. The Dogs have playful moods and a great sense of humor. They have quick emotions and if you offend them, they will snarl and insult you with expertise. They forgive with the same speed. Dogs are intelligent and well-balanced. With their stable minds, they make good counselors or psychologists. They endure during any crisis situation. They are trustworthy people and know how to keep a secret. Being efficient and very diplomatic, they can hide their prejudices well. Most Dogs have a comfortable home and do well.Dogs always defend what is theirs and have a high sense of value. Home and family come first,and Dogs will work to see that they have the best!

can i say that all of them true?
nehhh.cant believe that

jb,visiting family

2008-11-05T21:42:00.000+08:00

sleppy head.farhan
qistina kkissing tok usu's granddaugh
my neohew and niece darwisy and yana
my niece wearing blue kebaya size 0. toiyibah
qistina my niece

stressed,post traumatic, brain disorder

2008-11-02T21:55:00.000+08:00

hello i'm back,
back to my grands place.
i felt very lazy after a week or more sleeping at
punggol.

well,i had a great time,going malaysia,taman desa tebrau
my aunts and uncles visits.
i have a youngest counsin.name nur qistina
and visits my niece and nephews.
one of my niece,toiyibah(hopefully its right)
only still a baby wearing a blue kebaya size 0.
cool huh?

today my grandfather had a fall and had a 5 stiches on his hand.i rush back by car.to go back to bedok..and i dun wanna mention wad its it like to be.for now thats all.
bye.

Sorry for late news!

2008-10-20T21:09:00.000+08:00

RELIEVED,

after all the stress-related exams.i'm now freeeeee
but i dun think my results will get me anywhere.im just scared.ppl all said i did well?i did not even pass my math how can i did well?rumours says i go to 3n3.and if i go to 3n3,trust me i will change.no more late nites,no more lepak'ing,no more contiminated air,no more ton'ing,no more bad things.. i proms myself that.i had enuf of enjoying myself on whole of my sec2 lifes.i slack all the way through.and i regret for not revising math,and damn shit the math sheet is soo damn easy i cld actualy score well for it if i never forget the fomulas and careless mistakes.

i am soo damn shit.

but farewell many teachers had help enuf...
hiahs..1 whole year of slacking is fun.but bear the risk like mine.

sayonara

2008-09-20T22:37:00.000+08:00

Fuc up!!

i've lost my ezlink
my pics
my videos
what else?
i had a bad day..
but fun c;
. going out with zachary ryan and syakir..more then going out with retarded
wits.;0!
through great.its funny to see us running aorung food court seaching place to breakfast(zach fasting!!)..well okey though!!
but still very sad..
chio!!

REnew,REborn,RElife,REtrain...

2008-09-17T20:00:00.000+08:00

today..
i learn how to laugh,
cheer myself in my class,
the only thing in my mind that They make my day.
life have to go on,
i can't stop halfway..

i have to start everything new..
i can't wait for next year..
life is all the same.sweetest,bitter and sour..

Everything went smoothly for commitie members,(not really very noisy)
we discuss very well on what going to happend.
we will be very damn buzy with all the media resources,
thanks to me..the ideas came smoothly.. =)

During MT,

its all abt hari raya..
unfortunately,my father cant celebrate with me..again..
i have no mood to celebrate..
i don't bother what to wear this raya..
my first plan is to go Cemetary..
i want to meet all my beloved..
late bro achmad,Dadi,grandmama..more to mention..
i love them..and i dissapoint them too..

i'm just not going to say anything
anymore..
i hate whatever happend.,
yah yu guys are right..
i have to faced everything now,
no use regreting on what already happend
i want to became a baby again
i want to study real hard again
i want to be good....
i want to reborn...

till here diary..

vitamin c-graduation song

2008-09-16T21:23:00.000+08:00

The Graduation Song - Vitimin C

graduation song miss wong

2008-09-16T19:40:00.000+08:00

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives.
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25.
I keep thinking times will never change.
Keep on thinking things will always be the same.
But when we leave this class we won't be coming back.
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track.
And if you got something that you need to say.
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day.
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down.
These memories are playing like a film without sound.

We would get so excited and we'd get so scared.
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair.
And this is how it feels

[1] - As we go on
We remember..
All the times we..
Had together...
And as our lives change..
Come Whatever..
We will still be..
class Forever..

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money.
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will our boy shaiful
making a funny jokes each time
Can Hamidah find a job that won't interfere with her tan?.
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly.
And this is how it feels

[1] - As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

La, la, la, la:..
La, la, la, la:..
We will still be class forever

Will we think about tomorrow
like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this school
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

[1] - As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

All my fault...

2008-09-15T20:34:00.000+08:00

I know its all my fault
i dissapoint all my teachers.
i lead miz haslindah in risk.
i spoilt my future.
i dissapoint all my family members and friends.

whats wrong with me?
why do i have to do all this.
why do i disguised myself.
i know watever miss wong say is true.
apologised isn't enough
i know

i know that i'm not myself
but i'm feeling hopeless right now..
i have no more energy
to go back to my own life.
i have no courage

to be myself again

i feel soo down

Why must i risk everyone in danger
why?
why can't i wake up
wake up medot.you bitch wad have i done
i really feel very damn bad

miz haslindah,cg dian,mis wong
everybody

i'm useless
omygoshhhhhh
wad have i done
to save someone,i'm myself in risk.

now every one misunderstood me
i misunderstood everyone.

haish
i really feel bad

badbadbad
miz haslindah thinks wrongly
she go tell hui shan and amanda wrongly
now everyone thinks wrongly
they talk wrongly
i angry wrongly
all wrong
what i did all wrong

i understnd watver miss wong said is true,

its my fault
my fault and my fault
im stupid,right?stupid medot
argggghhhhh

i've no heart
no feelings
no brain
no care
no risk

i don't care abt anyone

i'm sooooo depressed
pls don't push me any further
PLS

SHOB:**(

i'm gg to be crazy.
i wld go to mental hostpital
my head pain
my body shakes
my eyes sore

my mental goes wrong

WHY?WHY??

I'M STUPID
I HAVE NO SELF CONFIDENCE ANYMORE
PLS DON'T BLAME ME AGAIN
PLS,STOP BOTHERING ME
IM STRESSS
YU THINK I FELT GOOD?
NO I DON'T
HUHUHU

PLS LEAVE ME ALONE

DAMN.

2008-09-13T20:53:00.000+08:00

Had a bad day yesterday.
followed CNB to bedok headquarters
frm 10am to 5.30pm.
i was totaly stress out.
i feel that world is the end to me.
Now i don't trust anyone;
friends
teachers
counsellors
families

i don't care,all of them are hyprocrites
i don't trust anyone!!
not a single person in the world.

i don't want to talk to anyone.
no one!

i felt soo damn traumatised

i don't want to go to that damn headquarters anymore!
i don't want to see any officers anymore.
i don't want to get cuffed anymore.
i feel soo depressed.

No one cld feel what i feel to be inside,get fucked up by the officers,its not a funny matter and fun thing to do.if yu guys thinks getting in a CNB van is a cool thing to do.you are totaly wrong.
change before everything changed you.

the police report will follow yu everywhere till end of your life.
think about yur future
think about how

you gonna find work with such records
its unbearable.
i've exprienced the bitter moment of my life.

the bittest.

i hate everybody right now

i hate!!

right now i'm so blur
i keep seeing things that happend yesterday

its a nightmare
its hunting me everyday
it shakes me everytime i saw a police station.

WHY?WHY?WHY?

i'm
helpless
souless
lifeless
hopeless

i've no more energy to move on.
i'm not the person to be loved anymore.
i'm not the person to be cared for.
i'm not my normal self anymore.

i'm not the siti hamidah on the last thursday morning yu guys saw.
i maybe worst
i maybe rude
i maybe arrogant
i maybe selfish
i maybe restless
i maybe not the same person yu saw yesterday.
trust me,i won't care about anybody.

Medot Don't Know what to say!

2008-09-11T21:08:00.000+08:00

Today i feel like a little crazy angel.

I gone back at 6pm.before that i have to go though malay oral.
i felt like a broken malay girl.

i don't know how to speak malay much

i don't know how to speak chinese much.
And shamelessly i don't even knw how to speak THAI!
useless right?

I do admit i'm useless,LOL!after all i speak mixed malay-chinese and english with my friends.
my malay teacher gave such a diffcult question.
it's my luck that she test on me,if not other teachers may laugh at me on the spot,not knwing that i'm in Mixed blood of THAI.
my granmama sometimes scold me.
as i always takes wrong things.
And thats very funny.

talking abt Thai I do miss my mum and i can say,i miss her
alot than anyone could miss any mum.
people keep asking,whether i miss or not,ofcourse i do.
tell me who's daughter never miss her mum before,crazy.
time has gone very damn fast,

i'm 14 now.

And yet she's not back.I'm waiting,i will wait till my death came and take me away.
(mum pls came back i miss yu,don't you love me?)
I miss my bangalow in thai,i miss plucking some fruits on the window.
i miss granmama
i miss my friends there
after all
i miiss you mum.

i don't know where you are right now,yu may be dead,yu may be alive.
only GOD knows.

But pls dear mummy pls came back,
your child right here,
waiting for you to be back.

sometimes i feel myself in MARIA HERTOGH'S
shoes.i feel so comfused.I don't really know what is in my heritage.
what i know,my mum has a CHINESE-thai blood
my father,MALAY-indon blood

HAIYOH!

Thats all for today,have a nice day ahead!!
bye!!

2008-09-10T21:49:00.000+08:00

I remember the day our class goes to Muar.And i can't deny we had alot of fun.andmy missions completes on that day.

I watched my precious mum(my form teacher)
everywhere she goes.
i admires her.
sometimes i hate her too.
but hate=love
i can'tdeny anymore

Now i afraid to loose her.in anywhere,i'm not afford for her to continue her job.
i do realised she have a high hope on us.And mr lek done a good job too.
Just that sometimes i cld'nt agree in his own way.
and he wayyyyyy to patience on me.
i salute him.

i knw its long way to the end,but i'm still thinking,can i continue without her?can i still continue?how can i?sometimes when i looked at her,my heart pumping out of place.
i can feel the atmosthere that she's gg off soon
and thats wayyy too soon.

deep inside i'm very sad.but she's looking forward of gg off.i think time is just damn fast.i hate this.

johari window

2008-09-09T22:06:00.000+08:00

you've been a part of me so longjust not the part that keeps me strongyou've been a part of me and I knowthat I will miss you when you goso long you've been a part of mejust not the part that we can seebeen a part of me and I know so don't you go to countless mornings to endless nightsyou keep me waiting for you to get things rightwhile in the darkness or in the sunthis time my waiting has only just begun.should be around there. hahaha.

2008-09-09T22:01:00.000+08:00

Johari Window - Plainsunset

Cyber wellness?

2008-09-09T21:27:00.000+08:00

Here i would like to present a cyberwellness post:
from,S.hamidah and others :)
Although Singaporean teens spend an average of 17.2 hours(found on internet ofcourse) on the Internet each week, most of them don't know much about cyber-wellness, defined as being responsible, respectful and rational, as well as being alert to scams and how to protect themselves.
When i actually interview some of my schoolmates.Some say they have lost control over how much time they spend online and think life without the Internet is meaningless and depressing. Most also do not report any illegal activity they may come across online while others do not know what is legal and what is not. Many also exhibited ignorance about copyright laws.I can actually now understnd that my schoolmates are all fools.
The findings, in fact, show that Singapore youths are not using the Internet optimally and adopting cyber wellness practices
I found this in one of the websites and all of them is true by scientific research expiriment.
The research by Fei Yue was carried out from March - July 2006. Findings are as follows:
Teenagers here spend an average of 17.2 hours per week online.
72 per cent of students indicated that their parents knew how to use the Internet.
49 per cent of parents never check the websites visited by their children.
10 per cent of parents often use Internet filters.
67 per cent of parents are unaware of their children's passwords to sites.
10 per cent of students sometimes feel depressed, moody or nervous when offline.
2 per cent sometimes fear that life would be boring, empty and joyless without the Internet.
17 per cent (207 students) indicated that they had met people whom they got to know online.
90 per cent would not pay to download files off the Internet.
An overwhelming majority of respondents never or rarely reported illegal online activities of others.
I feel ashamed and pity for those who actually does not cares about cyber wellness.that means they don't even cared about us.I should ask YOU people out there,what are we here in one country if we cannot help each-other by maintaining laws?whats so difficult by paying those downloading items?And what is so good about talking other people bad things online?(when you don't even knw them!!) Be responsible!! and please be sensible to others!
Some teenagers gave responses like "..it was free. It should be free", as a reason for being unwilling to pay for downloaded material.
"If it's on the Internet, it's not illegal 'cauz if it's illegal, it would have been taken off already," was another's response.

I know people out there will always heard teens saying things like that,and that is very common.Their idea of being 'ok' is actually pretty dubious."
here are some of my solutions to people out there reading my blog,parents,teachers,students and whoever that does such things above.please STOP!
Balance
Help teenagers manage their Internet Usage.
Equip them with good time management skills.
Create more avenues that encourage offline leisure activities for teenagers.
Astuteness
Educate youth on the potential risks in cyberspace.
Respect and Responsibility
Inculcate the same values of respect online as one would apply to others offline.
Encourage more education in the area of legal and illegal online activities through the provision of informative pamphlets or handbooks written for youth.
Provide information about the various authorities and avenues for help when youths come across illegal activities
Get parents to communicate with their children about online responsibility.
Embracing the Internet and Inspiring Others
Schools can initiate projects that allow students to use their computing knowledge to serve their communities or help other students.
Now stop cyber-bullying!!

NEW blog okey!!

2008-09-09T19:50:00.001+08:00

New blog guys!!

ouhmygosh!!thanksAtruckLOTS to a guy named M S B S.
he help me today with my blog!hah!! i really owe him one(yu did great)

the above ice-cream is for yu!!hahahah.then now must do CME boredd!!

i dooooo get him to do this for me..i beg him okey!

thanks ehhh thanks for asking me to wait while yu trying out the baju raya!!

now what searching for this stupid wellness thingy.fucked.

9.18 gg goggy already.malay hmwrk??!!! damn!!!!! okey guys

BYE BYE!!

Siti H. Iskandar aka Medot

Life and appreciation

MHOmuvee: Kashaf Imani | Full Telemovie (2011) - SDTVRip

Kashaf Imani

Story behind a person name Shu'aib

The update of the child.

Poor lil child,I've lost all faith in humanity now.

Jokes of the day~

Soo talented!

Not mine. But this belongs to everyone.

Wake up for Fajr Solah

Wake up for Fajr Solah

Beautiful Heart

Beautiful Heart

Why do women Cry

Why do women Cry

Jokes of the day~

MY PERSONALITY :)

Jokes of the day~

Rules of Joking in Islam

Salam guys!i'll be posting some jokes randomly.so this is the rules.dont take it seriously ok? btw i don't own any of the jokes content.thanks!-meddy dotRules of Joking in Islam

Signs of Allah in Our Tongues

The Patient Old Man

The Lion, Mice, Snake & Honeycom

The Lion, Mice, Snake & Honeycomb

Did You Thank ALLAH (swt) For Your Eyesight?

Who lives in the pineapple under the sea?

Its 2011 for godsake.

Ouh-no!

The Bible on "Why did God Create Women?"

Dalam Laut,ada sungai(Found a ocean,with lake under it)

About,love,success and wealth. read and learn..

Peace and blessing be upon our beloved Ahmad[s] and his family.

aiya..get married? are you trying to pull my legs?

This is not what i wished to be.so don't blame me.

Subhanallah..think about it guys,how lucky we are.

WE,girls are like apples on the trees..

Why you choose to be ISLAM?

another intresting story...

SUNDAY, NOVEMBER, 2009

Why do women Cry

picked from sister NurulJannah,may god bless her...

30 October 2009

I felt more contented now...

For the first time,i'm being happy again

< life and there after >

24 June 2009

I need something new for myself

speaks louder than words

sorry ya,out-station for 1 week =)

replace that sour smile for me please

something in my heart says,i still love you.

broken heart

my exprience

The way i love you,will not be as same as the way you love me

warna times

asian youth games

its me!!

He ; the special one

2008 part 2

2008 dec 31

kak eryns big day

My sweat,My sacrifices

no more pls

Random post

my thoughtfull mind

bodo ke peer

its all about me.

Fiona xie

dog zodiac

jb,visiting family

stressed,post traumatic, brain disorder

Sorry for late news!

REnew,REborn,RElife,REtrain...

vitamin c-graduation song

graduation song miss wong

All my fault...

DAMN.

Medot Don't Know what to say!

johari window

Salam guys!i'll be posting some jokes randomly.so this is the rules.dont take it seriously ok? btw i don't own any of the jokes content.thanks!
-meddy dot

Rules of Joking in Islam