Fatty Medot's
Daily Rantings
Friday, June 26, 2009, 10:41 AM
24 June 2009
I was up as early as 7 am,
to get ready to meet grandpa and grandma.(atok and nenek)
since I've got appointment with liren for a monthly counseling session,at 10am.
And i can't deny that i miss my grandparents so much.
when i reached The House at 9am,
my smile widen,to see my grandma is already there sitting on the sofa.
my eyes stray looking around The House searching for my beloved Atok.
I've not thrown away The House,house keys.
Because i know,I'll be at The House monthly to visit them.
I miss the smell of The house
I crave those Atok and Nenek 's time together
Old times kept flashing over in my memory
I'm back,here in The house,where the memories were kept.saved.
Nenek made me chicken sandwich,and two sweet corns for me.
i do rushed off from home,and did not have time to get my breakfast,thank god she made me one,sweet breakfast.
Atok was not around when i came.shopping
i brought atok and nenek masala thosai,and beancurd.
when atok was not around,nenek told me something that moves my heart.
"mida,asal tak datang atau telefon atok?atok rindu tau kat mida.atok beli jagung tu,bile die tau mida nk datang,dia tau mida suke jagung kan?,atok pernah bilang nenek,yang mida suka sanggat dengan jangung,sebab tu dier belikan"...."midah tak sayang atok lagi? tak sayang nenek lagi?"(nenek sobbing)
And tears running down my cheeks non-stop.i tried not to make it obvious that i cried.
and atok came back from "shopping",
i wipe away my tears,and i smile and run to Atok.
And he smiles too,with his shimering eyes,i greet him with greatness.
its 10am,and i have to go,we chat along,while they eating the thosai.
and i promised to visit them every month.atleast.
i give a kiss in the cheeks,for my goodbye.
i was out,and tears downpouring.
in my heart, i say to them,
"i love you atok"
"i love you nenek"
and i hope they hear that from their heart.
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